Control.

Confession: I have control issues.

It's worse then most people could imagine.

It's not in every happening in my life. Actually, I don't have the issues with my person to person interactions at all.




Solely in my circumstances, my surroundings, my life, and the path I walk on do I come across this issue. I notice it coming up when I'm outdoors in overwhelming weather. The emotion stirs my heart. I feel my blood beginning to pump faster and the emotion built up in my limbs makes me want to run.

Some people say it's a trait of a personality type: laid-back versus go-get'er
I'll have to disagree in my situation. I believe for my issue is the result of trusting God.

Let me clarify: i love not being in control


I've yielded to the Lord....
and it means the end of control.

I LOVE IT!
It overjoys me to be reminded that I'm not in control.
It's the reason I like to go outside and see some of the things He's created.
I love to see the stars, think about how small I am.
I love to stand in the wind, have my hair blown about and tip over in the power.
I love to watch a storm roll in, shiver with expectancy of the magnificence that is about to be displayed.
I love to feel the thunder, blinded by the lightning that follows.
I love to not see my next step, but know the end result - God being glorified.
I love to being abandoned in my heart of hearts, knowing He holds it.
I love to trust Him enough to use me as He wishes, and know...know the extent of His love for me.

I have a control issue. But if anything, a picture more representative of me is this: