Wordless

Monday, August 01, 2011

wordless

I can't do it anymore, I'm so tired, worn, and sore. I won't try this again, This just shouldn't begin. I quit. I quit, and you can't stop me. Tear-stained cheeks and dusted knee, a joy-drained face and wordless sorrow. Don't even want to see the light of the morrow. The light shines, coming through my window. Dawn breaks, chasing out shadow. Yet wordless and joy-drained I remained, However, now I know that I will be sustained. I can't do this. I simply won't be. It is not I who lives, But Christ in me.

Find out what it means to me...

As a child I was enrolled in karate for a semester. I can distinctly remember the wooden floor of the gymnasium we met in and the stale smell accompanied with the florescent lights blinking in the high ceiling.
I was instructed by my master to bow upon entering the gym and then once again when meeting your opponent.

 I was very concerned why I would need to bow. My mom explained to me it's a sign of respect. Especially before you spar with someone you need to tell them, "no hard feelings".

As an adult I've learned to love. I put away childish things (1Corinthians 13), and I learned to love selflessly out of my Maker's heart.

Do I fail?                                                                            Yes, quite frequently.

Does this love in me?                                   Not if I draw from the Source.

As I've written in this poem I fail, and when I operate out of my selfish love...I'm not patient, kind, hoping for the best, etc. Selfish love fails.

Now I transition to further understand respect.
Love has a chapter in the Bible, but how do I respect people? If I type into google: "What is respect?" This is what I get:

re·spect/riˈspekt/

Noun:	A feeling of deep admiration for someone or something elicited by their abilities, qualities, or achievements.
Verb:	Admire (someone or something) deeply, as a result of their abilities, qualities, or achievements.
Synonyms:	noun.  regard - esteem - reverence - deference - consideration verb.  honour - honor - esteem - regard - venerate - revere

Is it just a feeling? I wouldn't think so, because love isn't. Love is an action, a choice. Is respect the other side on the same coin?

What does respect mean to you? How do you know someone respects you?

tears flow from the heart

Sunday, April 24, 2011

tears flow from the heart selfish i am, when i'm wronged i get mad. grudges are held, my flesh will oft' lash out.  it's a mask, my heart only holds love. my spirit, aching for simple hugs. love flowing, not of me, but of He. limited, my love long past ran out. i loathe you, how many tears can fall? my heart shake, my Creator holds it. eyes sobbing. face drying in the sun. i know now, very well: true love knows pain.