"Tabitha, what are your goals?"
Sitting across from a dear friend eating a larger than life burrito, I stop chewing. "What do you mean?"
"...What are you doing here? What do you want to do with your life?"
I gave my canned answer and finished eating my burrito. But I had to continue chewing over this conversation for the next few days. I had answered his question with all of the desires and hopes I had, with the "calling" I've had on my life, with the things drive me.
It wasn't good enough. It wasn't true.
What is my goal?
- My goal isn't to be a mother.
- My goal isn't to go to Africa.
- My goal isn't to own a multi-million dollar company and encourage/supply the saints.
- My goal isn't to feed myself and keep a roof over my head.
- My goal isn't to love people.
- My goal isn't to speak truth.
- My goal isn't based upon my desires and thoughts.
My goal is simply this: to do what God wants me to do.
So, you analytic people reading this: "What does that mean?"; "How do you do that?"
1) It may mean that I do accomplish every one of those things I listed as "not my goal". I may very well go to Africa as a business owner encouraging and supplying the saints, marry a foreigner have beautiful blessed children, speaking the truth over them daily raising them in the Word...etc.
2) I must stay close to God to know what He wants me to do. Once I know what He wants me to do, I must have the faith to do it, and the discipline to follow through.
I fail sometimes, and that will be a blog for tomorrow (if I can muster the discipline)
You see, if I had those goals, and I accomplished them all....I would feel empty at the end.
My purpose isn't to do great things, My purpose is to be a vessel and vassal.
