Be the light.: January 2015

Well friends, it's that time of year. Everyone is posting their facebook "year in reviews" and getting gym memberships.

As I reflected back today, I wanted to write in my blog again (and sadly realized it's been over 15 months since I last wrote.) Seeing as nothing catastrophic happened without me writing, I will feel no guilt about it. :)

However, I would like to make a "Hello 2015" post and be vulnerable on here like I have been in the past.

I'm a little scared of this year. I'm going to be a mom and be fully responsible for a human being's wellbeing. That's a lot of responsibility. Don't get me wrong, I'm dead excited but there is something about the fact that makes me want to run around getting prepared because there's no way I'm good enough for my precious baby yet.

In addition to that, my husband and I after prayer and preparation have decided for me to take my leave from the professional workplace. I'm going to be a stay-at-home mom. This is frightening because it causes me to place my trust for financial health outside of my own 40 hour work week. I'm letting go of providing for myself, and it's revealing to see how much I don't trust God in everything.

I'm am excited for this year. I get to watch my firstborn grow, learn, and develop. I get to be with her through mile markers instead of a paid caretaker. I get to put my trust in God in providing for us (as He has done time and time again).

So, with out further to do I will wrap this post up with a cliche and my own little "year in review".