Insecurity...

Song of Solomon 2: 15
Catch for us the foxes, 
    the little foxes
that ruin the vineyards,
   our vineyards that are in bloom.

The fox sneaks under fences and walls attacking the roots
of what you've grown.
What is your fox? Where is your insecurity?

About a year ago I blogged on my xanga page that I noticed
 I was having a hard time receiving love.
What shortly followed was this revelation: I had allowed
the Enemy to cause me to doubt who I am in Christ. I had
allowed the garden the Lord and I had grown to be
destroyed at the roots.

Thursday, January 13, 2011

the Great or not so much. There's been this fox gnawing at the roots of my garden of Love with the Lord. It sneaked under the wall covered with ivy, and began right away to wreak havoc on the desires and calling that He's placed in my heart. Right now, I'm gonna call it out. Satan is a liar, the desires and talents that I have are from the Lord and He only. Christ in me is GREAT, what I do because I love Him...its NOT normal, I was created for the Greatness of loving God, and I willingly adhere to such a calling, forsaking all else. There is no "great" calling, there is no "lesser"/"normal" calling. There is loving God and obeying Him, or not. ("If you love me, you will keep my commandments." John 14:15) Keeping His commandments? That's a splendid idea...but we as human's fall short of the glory of God...daily. (romans 3:23) Let's focus on the greatest commandment...Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength. The second is this: "Love your neighbor as yourself." There is no commandment greater than these. (Mark 12:30-31) I think what's gotten in the way of me accepting love isn't the fact that I feel like I'm a dirty sinner...it's just that I thought I was a boring, normal, everyday person. No. I am infused with the Holy Spirit who has planted seeds of greatness in my soul and heart. The fact that I get passionate about "simply" loving God's people right here in America does not mean I'm boring or not listening to the Lord's calling on my life. This is it. I will love. I think I may write more on the greatness in a later post.