I have so many memories here. I've laughed with many dear friends. I've had encouraging conversations with mentors here. This is the only place I knew to come to the last time I was experiencing excruciating heartache.
This small seating room has been rearranged plenty with the two chairs, two love seats and a league of trusty chairs and round tables in the past 3 years I've visited. The chair I'm currently sitting in was once placed with it's partner about 10 feet south of where it is now. I used to turn it to face my friend in the other chair as we read, tucking my feet under their [bodily] seat to keep my toes warm.
How I yearn for that memory now...my toes are icy! Even more deeply than that, I can feel the chilly absence of that friendship on my heart. Now for the subject of this post, for I promised someone I'd write about this.
My secret of dealing with the heartache
that comes with missed memories of the friends that were once bound to your heart.
Every time people are about to leave, I begin to feel myself "guarding my heart."
Sounds great right? What a simple Biblical answer to heartache.
False.
Philippians 2 says it's not my job to guard my heart. I'm told to give it up to God, and He'll guard it. Trust me beloved readers, He does a much better job. I can go into detail, but we'll save that for another post.
So, my secret is this: I let God guard my heart and I celebrate His sovereignty!
Do you believe that He's sovereign? No....really?
Then present your requests, present your heartache to Him...and let His peace guard your heart and your mind. His peace that transcends all understanding.
What if everyone you had invested in left and the people that won't leave are the ones you don't want near you? What if the one thing you've dreamt about became your haunting nightmare? What if your circle of friends split, leaving you to choose between two or none? What if someone dies near to you? What if you lose your baby? What if you saved yourself for marriage and you find out you and your spouse is infertile? What if you lose your job?
It doesn't make sense, but you can still have peace.
I'm not perfect, but I rest in One who is :)
Praying for you as you go through the specifics of whatever it is! I it is never easy when dear friends leave - especially unexpectedly!
ReplyDeleteBtw, I really like you're blog! You can put your thoughts into words so well - I wish I could do so too! :) Keep it up.